Telling my story

Views from the Outside

And in comedy, self-deprecation has to be the excess of self-awareness in order for it to be successful, and I was always a glutton.
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Ursula’s Eulogy

I think of your appearance: A big woman, gaudy for your bright makeup, which sat as an alarm against your deep purple skin.
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Mi vida con Frida

Cutting Room Floor

I imagined that Frida was a woman who grappled with the same identity struggle that I had been toying with my entire life.
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Music to my qu-ears

At nearly every moment in my life, music has been the water and the sunlight and the rich soil that sprouted this anxiety-riddled mess of a songstress. Music wove itself into my life, secured by all these little lessons I taught myself.
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Golden coins

So here I am, a few days before my 21st birthday, demanding myself to incorporate art into my day and honestly, it’s exhausting. But yesterday, when I arrived at Slim’s and Ezra Collective started dancing on the stage for us, I rediscovered what Balmeo had been saying this whole time.
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Mother knows best

Cutting Room Floor

I knew my lines perfectly, so much that almost two years after I took my last curtain call in patchily applied stage makeup, I’m still struggling not to act them out in college.
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Love in all the wrong playlists

Cutting Room Floor

These playlists hold everything I have ever experienced, from the utter joy I felt laughing and screaming with friends on a spontaneous beach day to the churning I felt in my stomach during a fumbled kiss in the dark that I knew would be our last.
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Canvassing my queerness

Views from the Outside

She colored everything about that time of my life in golden hues of near unconditional affection. She gave me sunflowers and kissed my hands. We sang together, we harmonized. She felt right like few things ever had for me. She was a she, and that was hardly the scariest thing about her.
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‘PEN15’ envy

Views from the Outside

The way “PEN15” handles the mockery that Maya is subjected to is apt and painful, and watching it happen to a mixed-race Japanese girl made it hit close to home.
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