Nov 16, 2020 2:59PM
Work on polisci presentation
Nov 9, 2020 1:49PM
I had a coffee today. They gave me a big cup with no ice. It was bitter, but I almost finished it.
Nov 2, 2020 9:16AM
This is not a difficult assignment. I just cannot do it right now.
Nov 1, 2020 5:57AM
Wet eyes on the highway
I need to do better. I need to be better for both of them
Oct 20, 2020 1:06PM
I’m so pissed! off!
Oct 16, 2020 2:38AM
God, I feel like this is so long overdue.
I miss you a lot. Your presence reminds me of the color yellow and a day with pretty wispy clouds. The smell of clean laundry around the neighborhood brings me back to your house. Why is everyone always doing laundry around here?
I was pulling an all-nighter when I scrolled way back into my camera roll and saw a picture of you. You have the loveliest smile. Like your whole face is glowing from behind your nose and cheeks. They scrunch up and round in the most comforting way. I’m sorry for not being there as much as I should have been. You don’t have to write back if you’re busy, I totally understand. Oh, and happy birthday. I hope you had a moment to pause and breathe. I love you endlessly and hope to see you soon.
Oct 5, 2020 11:17PM
Feeling like the world is crushing me,
Sep 16, 2020 8:16PM
You need periods of silence/ pause/ thought/ getting lost to remember where you’re going
Sep 16, 2020 5:01PM
The physical space of my home, its sounds, the light, the familiar voices and people in it.
Eating food cooked by someone other than me or cuddling with my sister,
helps me with remembering to allow others to care for me, and accept care.
Sep 2, 2020 6:18PM
Grocery list: Avocado Cucumber Tomato Honey cheerios Advil Cough drops
Aug 16, 2020 10:03AM
Have a conversation
Spoil me with your presence
Jul 12, 2020 4:22PM
Jul 4, 2020 9:25PM
Baba told me about searching for the rare white leaves on the Iranian tea plantations.
Jul 8, 2020 9:19AM
The other night J— was on a whole cocktail of prescription pills, weed, nic, and god knows what else. Oh yeah plus alc. His hands were shaking so much. It can’t go on like this much longer cause what if he goes to sleep one day and doesn’t wake up?
Jun 22, 2020 12:36AM
Trading love for redemption
like pulling babyteeth
broken door knobs and broken-in doors
May 29, 2020 5:28PM
F––’s mom said yesterday when someone passes into heaven how you make them happy is to take care of yourself and stay healthy because you have the same blood. If you care for yourself, you care for them too.
May 26, 2020 2:21AM
The house feels too empty without you. It still hasn’t sunk in that you’re gone.
When we meet again, please tell me stories about the glass factory, Grandad’s motorcycle, and the open skies in Pomogayevo.
May 15, 2020 9:37AM
Grocery list: Scallions, Soba noodles (brown packaging), Mirin, Hojicha, Jellies for A—.
Apr 22, 2020 4:47AM
!! Self care is important
Getting ready and painting your face is an act of self love and self care.
Apr 17, 2020 9:08PM
(Guest entry, à la sister)
Zoom date (more like group project)
He looks like he’s about to choke the camera eboy style
“You know I think it could be the internet quality but I thought I heard another voice?”
He’s like a shy puppy hehe
First dates are always awkward don’t worry, it doesn’t mean something’s wrong with you
Mar 25, 2020 3:13AM
On the rare occasion I browse the internet for earrings, I always find myself wondering which ones might suit you best.
Mar 22, 2020 7:27PM
I just lucid dreamed for the first time.
Tried to crash a car but nobody would let me :(
Mar 13, 2020 12:09AM
I have a weighted blanket and I love it so much.
..i think that tells you everything you need to know about my preferences in bed.
Mar 11, 2020 11:53AM
Return to the house with yellow walls
where the picasso makes faces at you
from across the out-of-tune yamaha.
Kick off your shoes by the crimson door,
and past the hand-painted blue kitchen,
come home; to the place
where faded persian rugs
swirl below your worn slippers
in this special home,
tokens of have-been and will-go hang
secretively in the corners.
all the while,
the little etching of Madonna and her golden baby collects dust.
Mar 2, 2020 7:49PM
Things I gotta get around to doing:
stop drinking coffee
Mar 1, 2020 12:17AM
“You don’t belong to yourself
Your body is borrowed”
Feb 27, 2020 1:42AM
Got coffee today.
What are you missing?
Feb 26, 2020 2:33PM
I called mom today. same stuff again.
“Are you sure? I don’t know how you came up with that.”
clinic 3 2nd floor
Feb 2, 2020 2:44AM
Worrying makes you ugly :(
Jan 29, 2020 2:27PM
Reader @ Metro Publishing, 2440 bancroft
Jan 24, 2020 1:07PM
Tchaikovsky takes my soul
like a silk scarf
he releases me to the Russian wind
and I float up
at 3/4 time
to the clouds
Contact Alexandra (Sasha) Shahinfar at [email protected].