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Love, Ashley: A letter to a soulmate

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FEBRUARY 11, 2023

I knew from the moment I met you that I have missed you for years.

I get this inexplicable feeling that you and I are not strangers, that we have known each other — in another time, another universe, for years and years. I don’t know why or how you are so familiar to me.  Every breath in between your words, and each gentle impression you etch into my skin with the hands that seem to melt into my being tell me I have loved you in a previous lifetime. Perhaps I have found my way to you again.

It is impossible and ridiculous to think that we were reincarnated into repeated lovers, but this is exactly how you make me feel: unbelievably and recklessly romantic. 

Is this childish naive theory the reason why the idea of living without you wrenches my heart into excruciating configurations beyond comprehension? How long have I wandered this earth without you?

I have never pined so greatly for someone. Oh, how lovely it is to have you consume my thoughts and fill the space in my life that is custom-made for you.  There have been thousands of trains of thoughts running through my head since I could remember, but the deafening junction has come full-stop ever since you’ve been near. I swallow a mouthful of words just to get the chance to kiss you;  I have relied on language for as long as I could remember, but I would go mute to listen to only you.

What a privilege it is to hear you laugh.

In fact, I’d like to laugh with you for the rest of my life.

I adore the way you are every morning: soft and gentle, spread comfortably around me like butter on warm toast. You are the morning sunlight on a Sunday, the honey drizzled into my every cup of coffee, you are love in its purest form. I yearn for you incessantly; I would never need medicine as long as I had you. 

You are so lovely to love. I am sorry it took me so long to come back to you. I am sorry if others have made you think that you are difficult or unworthy. I would let you break my heart a million times over if it meant that for a temporary moment, no matter how brief, I mattered in your universe. 

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FEBRUARY 11, 2023