Passing through

Launching into Limbo

Unlike the doorway of my room, the threshold to adulthood is not one you can simply dive right through. In fact, it isn’t even hollow.
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Trusting myself

Sex on Tuesday

I was giving away my power, my independence, my ability to dictate my sex life for myself. I allowed myself to be pushed and pulled like a rag doll.
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It’s just a number

Transfer Talks

I can’t exactly pinpoint what I thought the outcome of attending Santa Barbara City College for all those years would be, yet starting when I was 18, I managed to be enrolled every fall and spring semester at SBCC, varying between part-time and full-time enrollment.
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Let’s just pretend

Launching into Limbo

Granted I am 19 now and spending my days making fake phone calls to people who don’t exist would certainly raise some valid concerns. But those unburdened years — spent pursuing entirely made-up occupations from the comfort of my living room — seemed valuable to me.
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Facets and faces

Sex on Tuesday

I love sex. I love all its facets and faces, velvet touches and carnal ferocity and gushing wetness. And if I’m not fucking you or you’re not fucking me, then fuck your thoughts on who I am.
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Perfect strangers

Launching into Limbo

Plus it really didn’t seem all that “adultlike” to me, having my parents hang around. In fact, the thought of them being familiar with my friends struck me as rather juvenile.
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Love, language and cigarettes

Off the Beat

Platonic love is a slow, sustained burn with bright flashes of color, like throwing salts into a fire. By necessity or otherwise, I think queer people have always known this
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Party for one

Sex on Tuesday

But sometimes I just want to make out with a cutie, get their number (or not), and go home to masturbate and sleep in the comfort of my own bed. 
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2 years

Transfer Talks

Community college was supposed to take two years for the average aspiring transfer student. That average wasn’t going to apply to me.
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Inside talk

Launching into Limbo

As in other families, a discussion of ours does not pass without recalling some memory the four of us share.
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