Patient and kind

Cal in Color

I’ve realized that, as a writer, I can’t completely bridge this gap between you and me, no matter how much I may try or how similar we are. I can only represent myself: weaknesses, strengths and all.
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Oh, to be a woman!

Cal in Color

This is the American media’s concept of a perfect woman. In some ways, even today, it gives me hope. More than that though, it frustrates me.
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Memories we choose to keep

Cal in Color

Especially because my overall life mentality is to look forward rather than to reflect upon old memories, I’ve realized that I have let many moments from my past fade away; I’ve allowed them to pass me by when I really should have held them closer.
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The right to be seen

Cal in Color

Often, after easing into conversation with an American, I’ve suddenly been asked where I’m “really” from. Sometimes, they begin guessing what kind of Asian I am, like it’s a game, or they immediately assume that I’m Chinese just because I’m Asian.
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For A-Gong

Cal in Color

I wish I could give A-Gong more than just my American habits and my Chinese, tainted with my heavy American accent and dotted with English; I wish I could say more.
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Trips I’ve taken from my dinner table

Cal in Color

Since I was younger, I’ve seen food — Asian food particularly — in the same comforting way I saw my family’s moments at the dinner table, but also as a connection to the life in Taiwan that I had never experienced.
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Two labels, two meanings

Cal in Color

Our culture’s synonymous usage of the ‘Asian American’ and ‘model minority’ labels does not just pose a problem for Asian Americans, but for all Americans. It’s become a natural reflex in America to assign people to stereotypes — a habit that seems to be as old as time itself.
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Beauty standards don’t define me

Cal in Color

The label of “beauty” has a presence that I’ve never really understood how to deal with, especially because it tangles with both my Asian heritage and my American upbringing. Both of these cultures have made a permanent mark on me with their distinctive beauty standards.
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