God’s plan

Sex on Tuesday

I thought about how I was taught that our outcomes were predetermined by a higher power. I realized that God did not have a map of my life. Rather, God’s plan was to allow me to regain agency in my life.
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Recognizing my white privilege

The Half of It

As I unpack the implications of doing racial justice work as a white-passing womxn, I realize that recognizing my white privilege does not invalidate my identity as a Chinese womxn and a person of color.
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Introducing myself

Muscle Memories

The more time I continue to spend in Berkeley, the less I care about censoring my experience with MG. My intention is never to make someone uncomfortable when I bring up my physical and emotional struggles but instead, to exercise my identity in a way that is liberating.
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Plus-sized isn’t always a choice

In My Size

Being curvy was not my choice, but I learned to embrace my body by separating my beauty from my curves. I am who I am — beautiful and unique — because I am curvy! I love every inch of my body, and I won’t ever let anyone destroy that positive perspective because in my size, I deserve to love myself.
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Dumplings full of culture

The Half of It

The childhood memories associated with food always remind me of the significance of my Chinese heritage that is erased because I’m mixed. Even when the world may not perceive me as Chinese, these memories of cooking with family and friends affirm my connection to China.
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A community of support

Muscle Memories

I find that sharing my own personal accounts and reading others’ give me a unique sense of liberation. Individuals on these forums want to listen to me, and they want to be heard. That is the crucial difference between the dialogue that often takes place in real life versus online. The support from the community space made me see that my struggles and experiences with MG are valid.
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Scholarly and shapely

In My Size

When I finally get to hold a diploma in my hand, I will think back to the day that I almost denied myself a chance to graduate from UC Berkeley because of my curves. My body is an empowering part of me, which I embrace with confidence, but it will never define my success!
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