A big goodbye

In My Size

In the future, I will continue writing in order to inspire myself and others. Writing about my curves is still hard at times because I have to expose the parts of my body that I have spent most of my life hating, but overall, I love it.
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Plus-sized isn’t always a choice

In My Size

Being curvy was not my choice, but I learned to embrace my body by separating my beauty from my curves. I am who I am — beautiful and unique — because I am curvy! I love every inch of my body, and I won’t ever let anyone destroy that positive perspective because in my size, I deserve to love myself.
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It’s (not) all about the angles

In My Size

As I lay on my bed scrolling through the 40 photos I took, my eyes filled with tears, and I threw my phone at the mirror. I looked nothing like the photoshopped pictures online. I was upset that I was trying so hard to be someone else.
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Because the internut

Sex on Tuesday

The first time I saw anyone vaguely like me on a screen was during a covert PornHub tirade at age 10. I found myself digitally trapped within the confines of a grimy prison shower, sandwiched between the thick dicks of two tattooed prison guards. Again, peering through a bulky monitor
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Take it like a man

(In)secure

Nathan Lee sits across from me on the bench as we both scarf down a late dinner. Inside the theater across the street, our dance group’s tech rehearsal is underway for our big shows that weekend. He’s a very different person than the guy I met freshman year — more
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Confessions of a breast reduction

(In)secure

It’s safe to say that by the age of 18, I had gotten used to that heart-sinking feeling that accompanied dressing rooms. It should have been perfect. The beach-chic high-low dress would make my legs look long and flow behind me like a superhero’s cape. On the hanger it had
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The unhealthy discourse around weight

Social Double-take

Wanting to improve your physical health and appearance should be rooted in your own intrinsic motivations — diet and exercise to improve the quality of your life, not solely to achieve an outward appearance or because others are saying you should.
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Victoria’s Secret and male body image

Sex on Tuesday

I expected that the pitfalls of body-image marketing, because its effect on women is pretty well known, would be easy to avoid. But when I flip through the pages and see perfectly chiseled eight-packs, luscious golden locks, acne-free skin and the goddamn perfect lip-bite technique I know gets panties soaked, I genuinely feel insecure.
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Loving you

Health and Happiness

A friend of mine recently talked to me about an experience he had after smoking marijuana — after getting high enough, he objectively looked at himself in a mirror and saw his face, his body and his total being. Because he wasn’t imposing his own subjective self-perception on his body,
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