Until we meet again Grandpa

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Living in Berkeley gives me peace, as I can reflect on my grandfather’s life, although his passing was so recent. I walk the same paths he took to class, overwhelmed with pride as a student to be where my grandfather was.
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Me, you and the Grinch

Views from the Outside

What else was I, a young child of color living in the very white Huntington Beach, California, meant to do with a character like the Grinch? I’d been conditioned up to this point to know that if a character was any color other than white, there was something about them that I’d internalize whether I liked it or not.
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A picture-imperfect holiday

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My holiday season always begins the same way — I sit impatiently in an almost-empty BART train car hurtling itself away from the chaotic streets of Downtown Berkeley to the sleepy suburbs of the South Bay. Phone in hand, I scroll absentmindedly through my Instagram feed, sifting through perfectly filtered
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A tale of two Christmases

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I’m dreaming of a (non)white Christmas — two of them, actually. Being Coptic Christian means that my official Christmas falls on Jan. 7. But my family has adopted a tradition of having a small Dec. 25 Christmas, too, a way of making a Western holiday our own. Our wooden dining
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Unpopular opinion: I hate the holidays

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Content warning: Sexual assault and suicide As a child, the holidays were magical times filled with love and good food. It was the time of the year that I got to reconnect with family, creating memories that I would cherish until the next year brought new ones. The holidays meant
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A half-white Christmas

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All I want for Christmas is to stop being asked what I am. As someone of multiracial heritage, navigating the concept of “otherness” prevents me from fully immersing myself in the festivities and experiences of my cultures.
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