College

It took me 20 years to want my culture back. A culture I had so actively sought to lose since middle school. 

I vaguely imagine the shoes my parents could be walking in one day, the paths they could blaze, the genuine dreams they would be pursuing. But the details are often excluded. It's hard to imagine something that won’t ever exist.

As the spring season approaches, so does another season—college decisions.

I know I’m burnt out when I suddenly feel this sense that I am a ghost in my own life. It happens when things are happening so fast around me and I have so much to worry about, I don’t feel like I have any control over the events of my existence.

If you could see them everyday / if they could see you everyday / they would see

Hookup culture presented me with the power to never truly experience rejection and to assimilate into teenage norms.

I’ve been seeing a lot of “Day in the Life of a College Student” videos on the Internet, and this is the college student that I sometimes wish I was. So, here’s a piece of autofiction about the day in the life of a so-called “perfect” college student. 

Perhaps everyone being home made me realize how lonely growing up can be — how the quest for independence feels a little less daunting when home base is right there.

Because even though we’re all spread across the country for college and the iMessage group chat is slowly dying, we will always have one thing in common: We were girls together.

If you ever feel lost as a growing young adult, these songs are here to remind you that everyone goes through it and you’re not the only one experiencing a multitude of emotions.