Being me, shamelessly

Off the Beat

The effects of living in a society full of judgment for mentally ill people don’t go away just because you know something shouldn’t be the way it is.
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‘Not sick enough’

Bear in Mind

While my therapist has me rate how I’m feeling on a 1-10 scale each week, there isn’t actually a definitive way to “rank” my mental illness and its severity. Illnesses are relative; what is “severe” for one person is functional for another. Both deserve to receive as much treatment as they need.
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It doesn’t get better (and then, it does)

Bear in Mind

I have received a plentitude of terrible advice in my time as a Chronically Mentally Ill Person. One of my favorite (not at all appreciated) pieces of advice (that is not at all advice) is “It gets better!”
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The thing that almost worked

Bear in Mind

The idea of zapping my brain felt like a last-ditch effort, as though my depression had become an unsolvable problem that required an extreme solution.
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Ghosts hover above a house with the silhouette of three people on the window

Some things can’t be told: A personal essay

Ghost stories and the affect of trauma

Content warning: The following piece discusses mental illness and eating disorders. I remember having remembered. Thus, what might have otherwise rocked me to my core simply became a way for me to finally explain my penchant for caprice. Just what was missing did not return to me until recently. I
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